speedy thing goes in, speedy thing comes out

The adage tells no lie: time heals everything. 

I forgot today. This is my first time forgetting in 5 years. If there wasn’t a reminder I would’ve totally forgotten. I couldn’t believe it as I glanced down to the clock. I refused to believe it.

And then I was taken to the past. A year ago, of hell, torture, and it made me who I was, made me who I am now. It’s all now a memory, like a film roll, of the silliness, the unneeded sadness, the lack of confidence. I didn’t deserve it. I should have put in this much effort: ∀ε > 0 ∃δ > 0 s.t. if | x | <  δ then | sinx | < ε 

Despite how much I stayed there…I can’t even feel it. I just remember the good times, and that’s such a nice feeling. The rest are lessons.

—Ironically, I used the computer in the library that I found out, a little more than a year ago. I wasn’t mad. I knew I was sitting in the place where I would become most successful. And I wasn’t wrong. Not even close.—

I’m so motivated to work now…because I made a promise that I haven’t broken yet. [I feel so bad for being lazy, because I’m not using myself to my full potential. But I am human, and there’s still time to turn things around.]  

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What did I even write?